Remember when it was raining, we were sharing my umbrella- and it broke..
And we just stood there kissing until we were both fucking soaked?
I remember it, but I know you don’t-
It’s been so long since then but even now you still choke
I get lost in that moment more than I’d like to admit,
Almost like you getting lost in your inability to fucking commit
Why do I still bother submitting to what only you will permit,
Even now.. in knowing none of what you say is legit?
A thin line blurred into an ambiguous oblivion;
Livin’ in a world of color changin’ shape shiftin’ amphibians
There ain’t no median, and I’m no damn comedian-
More like a mother fucking middle age tragedian
Trying to look past the lies is like trying to forget the color of your eyes,
Look at me, HA, trying to decriminalize behavior I despise!
We will always be two steps short of a fucking compromise
And I will always one step past predicting this as my demise
All I did was stand up for you, forgive me for never giving up on you
Rescue, renew, screw & spew then we’ll bid each other adieu?
Motherfucking breakthrough- what I’m owed is way past due
But I can see the disdain emitting from your temporal veins,
Sighs and shame, a blissless smile masks an underworld of excessive pain
Inhumane wrapped in good ol’ fucking sugar cane,
You’ll always maintain your domineering reins
Wipe that grin off your face, it doesn’t take a genius to see you’re right
I can’t believe it’s taken me this long to see the fucking pilot light
I’m uptight tonight and it’s obvious I love the fight
Hell, I even love the reins- but hunny, they aren’t being held so tight
Excuse me if I love the chase, but I’m trying to pick up the fucking pace-
Have I really fallen this far back in this winding fucking race?
..Just a momento lying dusty on a worn out wooden bookcase
When will the answer precede the question,
I’m sick and tired of always having to learn a fucking lesson
I’m just guessin’ that it’s too hard for you to make a selection
Seems like I’m the one continuing to condone my own oppression
You’re a diamond encrusted ball of chain attached to my intention
The beauty is so blinding I can’t see I’m stuck in my own detention
All this for your attention, when all I get is your fucking secession
Further fueling this all consuming and mind numbing retention
Believe me when I say I wish it was all just a dreamscape-
But even than won’t allow us our well deserved escape
This can’t be fixed with scotch tape, and I can’t find the fucking duct tape
We can’t deny our predetermined slated fate
No one’s holding on, but no one’s letting go
This has been one long motherfucking plateau
All the things I’ll never say, all the things you won’t bestow
Sorry for the mother fucking shit show.
“He said ‘hey girl when will you fucking quit
You always put too much stock in this shit
I don’t care enough to turn this into a fight
Turn off the spite it’s time to say goodnight’